As a musician, artist, contemplative, theologian, and cultural explorer, I find a strange joy in grappling with the larger questions about life and existence. To me, this is the heart and soul of communications — exploring the dynamics of what it means to be human, how we connect and relate with one another, how we cultivate love and growth, and how we perceive ourselves in relation to the wider universe or the Divine. My reflections here are an attempt to capture moments of life — through a canvas of words, songs, images, and reflections — that I hope bring a deeper meaning into focus.
MUSINGS
I’ve been seeing stars lately. Lots of them. Not in the sense that I’m encountering dizziness or vision problems or that I’ve been hit over the head with anything. But metaphorically speaking, a shift in vision has occurred. I am not the same person I was. I have been seeing stars in the night sky, a whole array of tiny radiances beaming out from the blackened blue heavens, arranged in the shape of stories and myths.
Each day, when morning breaks, I peer out my bedroom window and my mood immediately rises to match the weather outside. Gray and foggy? So am I. Sunshine starting to peer over the horizon? It’s going to be a bold, bright day for me too. When the weather is in-between or switches too quickly between moods, I’m guaranteed to be a bit out of sorts.
If I could summarize the first month of 2022 in one word or phrase, it would be becoming…The ellipses are very important here. I know there is more to follow. 2022 came in almost like a nesting mole burrowing its way forward into my sphere of awareness.
It’s been a few days since my husband and I returned from a brief retreat at Esalen. It was, in a word, awesome. I don’t use that word frivolously here. Our weekend at Esalen was literally about awe — the science of it, the proximity of it in our daily lives, the way it surrounded us over the course of two days.